When we become so focused on our achievements that we lose sight of our lives in the here and now, something happens to our hearts and our psyches. We find ourselves joylessly going through the motions of our daily lives, lacking patience for the present in a way that robs us from appreciating the very things we supposedly work for, as they materialise.
Lately I have felt this way to some extent. Each goal realised is not enjoyed. Rather, somewhere along the line I’ve conditioned myself to treat achievements like strategic stepping stones (and upping the stakes), instead of like the lessons or accomplishments to be proud of that they really are – in and of themselves. As I am noticing this happening, I can’t help but question which beast the obsession with ‘doing more’ is feeding. Is this constant focus on new sets of goals a case of Sehnsucht, as the Germans might so eloquently put it? Am I constantly chasing new objectives in such an obsessive manner that I am effectively rendering my satisfaction impossible? Or perhaps is it a matter of running from something, rather than lusting for something?
It will do me some good to take a step backward and ask myself these questions, so that I can take the piece of my joy back that has fallen prey to this whole chaotic state of affairs. Maybe, when all is said and done, I just need to get out of my own head and take a moment to breathe. There is a good chance this is the case, and I sure hope it’s that simple. 🙂
Don’t ever let anyone tell you that these types of examinations of self aren’t important. They. Are. Everything.
Why? Because mindset truly is everything.